That’s what always starts it.
Not having anything to do, but lay there and think about all the problems
in yourself and in your life.
You get to thinking and realize
I hate everything about myself.
You find yourself reaching for a blade
and dragging it across your fragile, pale skin.
Blood dripping out.
You pass out
to not only see the scars in the morning,
What if I never get help?
Do I even want help?
Honestly, I don’t know if I can answer either of these.
I just want to give up..
Today, I wore a dress.
I am beautifully wrapped in polka dots and colors
People are actually noticing me.
They’re saying things that I haven’t heard people say about me before.
You look pretty
Wow, you’re beautiful
It makes a difference on how a girl sees herself.
I think I finally know what a friend is.
Finally having someone walk beside me through hell.
@witnessthefire: You are now one of my best friends, while also being my inspiration. Thank you. ♥
Just when I thought happiness would never find me again..
A smile would never be my friend again..
I’m laughing like an idiot.
You guys, my day is a little slow, but it’s ok..
BECAUSE IT’S FANTASTIC.
Everything is just right.
I’m so happy.
There will be no cutting tonight.
One day, I will get rid of you.
One day, I will be in charge.
One day, I will be beautiful.
As of today, I haven’t eaten a full meal in three days.
My stomach is growling, but honestly, I don’t care what it craves anymore.
Whenever I try to eat.. it never stays down.
A constant battle with my body.
“What do you think you’re doing? You can’t eat.”
I just don’t know what to do anymore.
I started cutting again.
I’m really disappointed in myself.
That’s nothing new.