“The years teach much which the days never know.”

Spring break was a train wreck.
My thighs, my hips, my stomach.. they’re all covered in what will soon be scars.
I didn’t know what else to do..
Question is:
“One a cheater, always a cheater.”
What do you think?
The question about the quote is actually pertaining to my boyfriend.
He didn’t particularly cheat, but only because he got caught in the process of trying.
Also.
I am currently covered in scars from about my hips to my mid-thigh.
Honestly, I’m not ashamed of them anymore.
I actually kind of admire them.
They tell a story without even having to say a word.
They’re kind of beautiful in a way.
To me at least.
I am a bit afraid though..
The summer is only two months away and I’m afraid that others may not think the same way that I do about my scars.
Shorts are going to be the death of me.
I have not cut in about 3 days now, though I do get urges several times in a day.
-have them now actually-
I guess we will see how things go, but all I can say is I’m trying.

2 thoughts on ““The years teach much which the days never know.”

  1. I think scars are beautiful. But that may be because I understand. Once a cheater always a cheater depends on the person, I can’t give you an opinion when it could be based on an experience of someone else, only you can make that decision. The urges will seem strong now, and maybe still in a weeks time, but it’s worth it because after that, you won’t even need t think about this comment any more. Find a hobby, go out, talk to your boyfriend. Do something, distract yourself. Don’t let the things that other people might judge about you, pressure you. You’re trying and you’ll succeed. Sure, and realistically, you might not succeed this time ( I hope you do but…) next time you will.

    Good luck. x

    • I literally almost cried when I saw this part:
      “You’re trying and you’ll succeed. Sure, and realistically, you might not succeed this time ( I hope you do but…) next time you will.”

      You are one of my favorite people in the world right now (not to mention you are beautiful).
      Thank you so so much.

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