Guess what…

This girl got all A’s and one 85B on her progress report, today!
I’m too excited. 
I can’t wait to see the look on my dad’s face, when I bring home good grades 🙂

Anyway, yesterday, my boyfriend’s mom brought me some journals to write in.
So I’ll most likely be writing in those and documenting my feelings and stuff.
It should be interesting.
(Hopefully, my parents won’t find it)

But yeah, today has been good.
Buh-bye xo. 

PS. OH AND LET’S NOT FORGET THAT TODAY IS FRIDAY AND I’M GETTING FRO-YO WITH A BUDDY AFTER SCHOOL YAY

That day.

I remember the day that I met you.
You were sitting on the couch, in a crowded party.
The first thing I heard was your goofy laugh.
And instantly, I smiled.
You were cute.
I sat on the other side of the room, admiring you.
You were my mystery.
I knew nothing about you, but I knew that I wanted to know everything.
We played a game together and I had a blast.
I remember going home that night, smiling.
I missed you.
And I wasn’t sure why.
But I knew that I wanted to see you again.
The crazy thing was, one day, when we were hanging out…
I caught you looking at me.
You were smiling.
And that’s when I fell helplessly in love with you.Image

Recovery.

Day One.
I can tell this is going to be hard. Today is only the first day without cutting and honestly,
I’m already having urges. I don’t want to relapse. I want to get better. I think that my body and mind may want something different though. My “tools” have already been taken from me, from my parents and I’ve been given strict instructions on not using or having any thing sharp. I’m going to start a journal and every time that I have and urge, I’m going to write it down. It’s not a big thing, but it’s a good start (I think).
I’m mainly focusing on the cutting, but I’m also working on my bulimia problem too.
I’m going to start eating a bit healthier, but I’m going to focus on smaller portions right now, until I can eat those everyday and be okay.
Today I have had:

  • half of an orange
  • a cookie
  • and some chips
  • along with some water

It’s going to take time, effort, and commitment and I think that I’m finally ready to accept the challenge and learn some self-control.
Wish me luck.