Day nine

You’ve been away to basic training for nine days, now. 
I miss you like crazy.
I’m not completely falling apart, but I do feel a bit empty without you here.
Most people ask about the sexual relationship between and us and if I miss it..
Tbh I do, but I miss cuddling with you and just being in your presence more than anything. 
You mean the world to me and without you, my world has no meaning.
78 more days and I’ll get to see your handsome face..along with those sexy dress blues.
I love you, James.
And I’m here..just like I promised. 


I miss you, sweetheart.
I hope that you’re doing ok.

“The years teach much which the days never know.”

Spring break was a train wreck.
My thighs, my hips, my stomach.. they’re all covered in what will soon be scars.
I didn’t know what else to do..
Question is:
“One a cheater, always a cheater.”
What do you think?
The question about the quote is actually pertaining to my boyfriend.
He didn’t particularly cheat, but only because he got caught in the process of trying.
I am currently covered in scars from about my hips to my mid-thigh.
Honestly, I’m not ashamed of them anymore.
I actually kind of admire them.
They tell a story without even having to say a word.
They’re kind of beautiful in a way.
To me at least.
I am a bit afraid though..
The summer is only two months away and I’m afraid that others may not think the same way that I do about my scars.
Shorts are going to be the death of me.
I have not cut in about 3 days now, though I do get urges several times in a day.
-have them now actually-
I guess we will see how things go, but all I can say is I’m trying.